Session Start: Sat Jun 22 15:20:36 2002 *** GMAmy changes topic to 'Grandia: New Horizons | Chapter 34.1: Erellisae and Cassidy | Location: The shinlan's palace, July 16, morning | Crappy GrandiaRPG summary/primer at http://whafroofdeath.rpgcafe.net/temp/grandiarpg.html | Lude Start' ==Lude Start== After the others have sought their beds, only a couple are left thoughtfully sitting around the table, finishing their tea. The place is very quiet now, darkness falling, but it is a bit early yet for sleep.... * Erellisae sips at some tea, watching Cassidy with that same hint of curiosity she has through the day. * Cassidy quietly broods.. her gaze falls to Erel, before falling back to the pages of text she has on the table. * * Cassidy pauses for a moment, before raising a questioning tone. * What? * Erellisae looks down into her cup, smiling faintly. "You sounded... scared. Were you...?" Well... no worse than any other before-mission jitters I suppose. But I guess it's all moot now. * Erellisae shakes her head slightly, still smiling faintly. "Heh... when I found out you had the same birthday as Mitsuo, I couldn't help but think 'wow! What if we have /another/ Icarian with us? Twins and all.'" * Cassidy's eyes widen a moment, coughing a moment. * What?! * Cassidy nearly falls out of her chair with laughter! * * Erellisae giggles faintly, shaking her head. "I know, I /know/... maybe a bit unlikely, huh?" ^^; * Cassidy giggles. * Wow, Erel.. that's.. I dunno. That's a good one. * Erellisae looks contemplatively across at Cassidy, leaning on one elbow, hand under her chin. "Doesn't seem so far-fetched right now, though. Offering to take on a legendary, unkillable soul-stealing fish alone? Then being able to come /back/? That's more than a bit unlikely too." * Cassidy straightens herself back in her seat. * I'm just a really, really good soldier, with a few tricks up her sleeves. That's all. Bein' an Icarian would make it easier, I'm sure. * Erellisae smiles wanly, shaking her head. "What tricks? I mean... trying to take that on by yourself..." Tricks of the trade, Erel. When you undergo some top secret and intensive training for most of your childhood, you pick up a few big things here and there. * Erellisae looks skeptical, but sits back in her seat, dropping it for now, warming her hands with the teacup. "...why do /you/ think I didn't want you to go?" Probably 'cause you'd think I'd get killed. * Erellisae grins a little, and shakes her head. "Nah. I know you'd be able to get out of there if something bad happened." So what's the problem then? Nothin' bad would've happened. * Erellisae shrugs faintly, her eyes unfocusing into the distance slightly. "Because... to me, willingly letting you go into danger without bein' there to back you up, whether you can handle it or not... doesn't seem like I'm being much of a friend to /you/..." I've been running headlong into danger all my life, Erel. As Cassidy or as Rion. It's just what I do. Shopkeepers shopkeep. Librarians do.. librarian things. ^^; I.. I avert world-threatening disaster. * Erellisae stares at Cassidy faintly. "You said you wanted us to trust you, right?" * Cassidy sighs. * It'd be nice, yeah. Though I guess if you don't, you don't. * Erellisae points at Cassidy. "We're friends. It's only natural to want to back you up. If you want me trust you with averting world-threatening disaster, you haveta trust that we'll be there to back you up. Friends /help/. Not run away." But I do things alone. It's the way I work. The only thing it has to do with friendship is keeping the lot of you safe. You'd just said you'd had no doubt I could get away if it really was worst case. So if you're all safe, and my own safety is assured.. I don't see why anyone has a problem with it. * Cassidy shakes her head.. * * Erellisae giggles, shaking her head. "I never said I was logical. I'd trust you to get away. But I wouldn't be able not to worry about you. And I'd still want to help out." I should probably hit the road then.. you're great people n'all.. but I don't need to be worried about. * Erellisae raises an eyebrow, and grins toothily. "I dunno if you'd get out the door. I've been learning some tricks." She shakes her head, looking more serious. "Of course we're gonna be worried about you. We're your friends. Weren't you worried about us? About how we felt about you heading off? It sure sounded like it." * Cassidy smirks. * I'm not worried about you because I trust you have the common sense to survive. I don't need to worry because I know you'll be okay. But no one around here seems to trust me that much. * Erellisae blinks, then nearly falls off her seat with laughter. "Me? Common sense?!" She grins, then shakes her head. "You worried about our consent, though. And it's just plain safer to travel in a group." * Erellisae shakes her head. "I trust you. C'mon, I'm /me/, you'd /know/ if I didn't. But I don't want you to do this alone, because I wanna cover your back, and help. Believe it or not, I reckon Dylan and Nathan feel the same, as opposed to not trusting you." Nathan still hates me, I think. I don't think he wants me doing anything else that might relate to him. That's why he's taken the stance he has. As for Dylan.. well.. he's slow to act, and really tempered. I suppose if I were as big as he was, I might not believe someone so small could stop something so terrible. I wanted the group to let me go, so that I could know that I wasn't putting them in danger. And maybe have a bit of faith in me. * Cassidy leans back. * But I guess that's not a happenin' thing. * Erellisae raises an eyebrow. "They'll have more faith in you if you stop going off on your own. If you /tell/ them what you're gonna do, because just 'I can stop that thing' isn't enough, we need a why. Because they'll have more faith in you if you travel /with/ us and stick with us." I didn't just go off to do my own thing this time, though. I dunno.. I think I should just go. I mean.. if I'm causing worry, and no one trusts me, and Nathan still hates me, and you think I'm some Icarian.. well.. this means I'm probably more trouble than this is worth. * Erellisae laughs a little, leaning back. "As compared to someone she's just found out she's a Lumian and has an amusing tendency to try to blow up anything that annoys her, fawn over whoever last fell unconscious and whose race made a machine to throw fish at people?" I trust you. Trust /me/ on that, rather than saying I don't. You're not in an elite military force and sworn to secrecy though. You can share things. I can't. I've worked all my life without always having to know the why behind things.. so in turn, I don't supply the why of things unless I have to either. * Erellisae smiles wanly. "That doesn't mean you can't share some things, though. I mean... your birthday. If I'd known when it was, I could've gotten you something as well as Mits." ^^; Yeah.. but there's a whole lot of difference between knowing a birthday, and knowing how to deal with that spirit though. ^^; * Erellisae shrugs faintly. "Besides... I don't think you'll leave. I think you're gettin' there... asking for our permission shows that. And you wouldn't give up on something, would you?" She smiles a little wanly. * Cassidy looks away.. quite unable to answer.. * I dunno what I'm gonna do, Erel. * Erellisae smiles a little more, watching her. "Don't give up on them. I trust you. Maybe the others don't, I dunno. But coming with us... like /this/... will help that. Maybe it'll take time... but you've a lot more patience than me, I'm sure." * Cassidy shakes her head.. * Hey... * Cassidy glances back.. * ... you're not alone, okay? I dunno what I'm gonna do, either... somewhere out here is an island I'm being led to, things I'm finding out about myself I've never known, I'm having to pick my way through. And I'm /scared/. You helped me out then, remember? And if you ever need, I'll do the same for you. Even if I have to sign form after form to even get the information. ^^; If you wanna help me.. you'll wish me luck right now as I walk out that door.. and tomorrow, when everyone else discovers I'm gone, you'll tell them it's okay, that everything'll be okay. And then I'll meet up with you again later that night. ^^; * Erellisae shakes her head gently, speaking softly. "I won't do that, and you know it. Not because I don't trust you, but because it could destroy the trust you /have/ got so far with the rest of the group." * Cassidy sighs. * Well.. I had to try. * Erellisae shakes her head with a soft smile as she stands up. "There's nothing to stop you leaving during the night. But if you do, what're the others going to think?" I dunno.. they don't trust me as it stands. Not like I have anything to lose by goin' now. * Erellisae waggles a finger at Cassidy. ^^; "Assume they trust you. Whether it's true or not, it might help you see which way to go about things. And for what it's worth, I think they do." Either you stay and they think "Well, hey. Cassidy didn't sneak off. Cool." or you go, and they think "Damn. She didn't trust us to help her out, and she left. That's rather upsetting." And you won't tell them that's not really the case, will you? I think that's the thing. Somehow, I'm the bad guy in all of this. I have friends, but not really, 'cause they won't defend me when I need it. Because I can't say what I'm doing, it's obviously wrong. * Erellisae shakes her head. "If you left, I'd try to. But there'd still be the sting of you leaving. The sting of it coming from me, rather than from you." Only if you didn't sound like you'd meant it.. and I don't think you'd really mean it. Cassidy ran off to do her own thing again, and your line to the others'd be 'I tried to stop her.', it wouldn't be 'Yeah, 'cause I believe in her.'... * Erellisae shakes her head, raising her eyebrow. "It'd be a bit of both, maybe... leaning towards trying to calm everyone down. After all, I /have/ been trying to stop you, too." It'll take time. Especially with some people. But me, Mits I shouldn't wonder, Feray probably... we don't wanna see you gone. I think you're pretty cool. You saved the world before I ever left my house. ^^; You have no idea how lucky you are to have had a life like that. ^^; As for the here and now though.. * Erellisae shakes her head faintly, looking down at the table. "Nah... I hated it. How many friends d'you think I had?" I dunno. I haven't the first clue what kind of life it really was.. but I'm certain it was alot different than mine. Sunny days, and normal school. Boys. It couldn't have been that bad. ^^; * Erellisae giggles, and shakes her head. "One friend. The rest of the village came nowhere near 'the strange Baran people'" ^^; Well.. I guess as you later found out, perhaps it wasn't quite so normal a life after all. ^^; * Erellisae yawns, and stands up from the table. "Look at it all this way. I know you'll be safe, and you trust me to be safe... so where's the problem with my coming along? I don't mind /how/ we get rid of it. I just want to watch your back, as friends do. Being in a group means we're safer and have more trust, and we could end up having to use your plan as a backup /anyway/." * Erellisae wanders slowly to the door. "Having two plans ready to go in case one fails seems like common sense to me... and this way you can prove yourself by backing /us/ up on this island we're going to. I get the feeling we might need it." ^^; Let's hope not. No one else seems to want it. * Cassidy goes back to her papers, no better and no worse off than she was before.. * * Erellisae shakes her head, pausing at the door. "Don't sell yourself short... you'll get there. I trust in that, too. See you tomorrow." She yawns again, and heads upstairs. ^^; ---- LUDE END AND STUFF COZ GM ISN'T HERE RAWR Session Close: Sat Jun 22 18:28:56 2002